The Butterfly Experience

So I truly do think of my journey through life as a butterfly experience. For so long I slowly crept along like a Caterpillar, not really living just existing. Tryin to get from one place to the next. No direction and feeling ugly and unimportant. 

My years of darkness were like a cocoon where I was trapped in my own personal hell. Although God could have broken it open and saved me, He knew I had to be shaped and formed until the right time when I could emerge and become what he created me to be. 
Honestly, sometimes I want to crawl back in that cocoon where I can hide and no one can see me. But it's at  those times when my Jesus whispers in my ear: I created you to soar on my strength and when we fly together, no one will ever be able to clip your wings. 

When I keep my eyes on Jesus, like Peter, I won't sink. Instead I will flutter and fly and experience the sweet nectar of the life God has blessed me with. The old me (Caterpillar) is gone. I have been transformed and made new (Butterfly)!

Nothing is Impossible with God

 Before I went to church and heard our our Youth Pastor preach, I was feeling hopeless, helpless, and viewing all the obstacles in my life as impossible hurdles I would never get over. But when he started to share, one by one every other person in that room began to disappear until it was just him and me and God. I am going through the hardest time I have ever been through and on most days I get manage to somehow get through by God's amazing grace. Lately, it seems like I'm hanging on by a thread. But I left today once again filled with the hope that Nothing is Impossible with God. Thanks Pastor Dave for being a great messenger. I am grateful everyday that you are Shane's Pastor.

Freedom

Who would have ever thougth that by completely surrendering, I would find freedom. By letting go of all the unforgiveness and bitterness that have been eating away at me my heart actually feels regenerated. At one time I believed that my heart was so broken that it could never be repaired but God makes all things new. Today is the beginning of the Great Adventure from Cocoon to Butterfly. Can't wait to spread my wings and soar